Tuesday, November 10, 2009
This is how I describe my holidays so far: "boring"
Why?
Erhu, homework... Oh ya, not to forget going to SMU to help out...
Helping out is fun...
The rest seems to get more boring each day...
Haiz...
And I'm having this 双天至尊craze..
Cos of the replay at 12am.
I remembered a little about it when I was young...
Left quite a deep impression I must say.
It's the only show that left an impression in my mind from all the drama series I've watched before p4.
Amazing, I know...
My family doesn't really gamble, and yet, it's a gambling show that leaves a deep impression.
No, I don't gamble.
I'll be killed to even have that thought...
Hahas...
Serious.
Never-ending nagging will begin.
Well, been chionging my darling erhu...(seriously, do I really mean 'darling'?)
Exam coming in about 2 weeks...
Heart pumping... Confidence decreasing every single second.
Everyone say I'll make it except for myself...
I don't think that I can make it...
I feel like I'll fail badly.
Even if I pass, it will only be a pass, not a merit...
Haiz...
This year had no scoldings...
No scoldings=more fear in my heart...
I don't know what to do besides practise.
but that doesn't increase my confidence...
Haiz...
Keyboard going a litte bit crazy...
Type fast will miss out a few letters...
I WANT TO CHANGE A LAPTOP!!!
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Love is not blind. Puppy love is..# ;
Friday, November 6, 2009
I've been thinking for the past two days...
Should I type her a long letter to clarify things?
Or maybe I should not...
Cos I'm afraid that that stupid letter that I want to type will affect our friendship...
I'm confused... I don't know what to do...
Been praying for guidance...
I'm scared I'm too harsh... I don't know whether will she understand
Maybe not. Cos I'm horrible at expressing myself fully in front of her.
All I can think of is to spend time with her without any conflicts
Haiz...
I want to put things in a nicer way, but it becomes vague.
I want to express myself fully, but I fear that it becomes harsh...
What can I do?
Keep my feelings in my heart?
I don't know.
I just want to make sure that this beautiful friendship will indeed last forever and ever.
I don't want to lose this friendship, like how I lost that other one.
That kind of pain is deeply remembered.
The kind of heartache I suffered still lingers.
I don't want to go through that again.
No friend had been like Eunice. So understanding...
Perfect in almost any way in my heart.
Haiz...
Can someone please tell me what to do...
I feel lost...
In a dark place, frantically searching for any soul to help me escape...
I seriously don't know what to do..
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Love is not blind. Puppy love is..# ;
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I'm horrible at expressing myself through both mouth and writing I guess...
Haiz...
Tried to ask Eunice for the YPF chalet...
Maybe it's just me...
I shouldn't have even asked...
Horrible misunderstanding cos of me...
Haiz...
I had no intention at all... Even if I had, it was to spend time with her, not like the previous ones.
Haiz.
I'm totally horrible at providing information fully.
I don't know how to continue to chat with Eunice from here...
On one hand I want to talk to her, yet on another, I don't know how to continue...
Maybe I should just calm down for today...
Reflect...Labels: Emo, Eunice, misunderstandings
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Love is not blind. Puppy love is..# ;
Monday, November 2, 2009
when I say "first day of 'work'", i actually do really mean first day of work...
except that I'm working for daddy...
hahas...
Cannot believe how hectic 'life' is here...
so many peak periods whereby I collect $$ until I want to faint...
Thankfully, those students were very patient and nice...
There was even one who was so scared that she confused me and said sorry...
HAHAS...
Then I went to the toilet, and on the way there of course somehow tour that particular campus...
Or else, why would I say I go toilet for no reason? I not that bored ok?
Anyways, I'm actually blogging this at SMU. :D
Oh ya, there's this idiot Indian... TOTALLY RETARDED.
Say that we should not charge him for the coffee cos he did not receive his change for the beehoon. Which costs $1.20 and he paid $2.
But that was his second cup of coffee...
The first cup should have settled the no change thingy...(coffee is $0.80)
So, I went to explain things to him...
HE ACTUALLY CALLED MY AN IDIOT!!!
WTH... He is that idiot...
He banged the table and everything...
I was trying to be nice and ask him to listen to me but he kept interrupting...
HOW RUDE!!!
Like, what's the matter with him?! He's in the wrong and yet he's scolding others?
And he told me NOT to argue with him when he was the one trying to argue...
What crap?!
He even scolded one of my daddy's china workers cos their english is not that good...
So, I tried to explain that they just started learning.
HE ACTUALLY TOLD ME IT'S NOT ABOUT THEM!!!
Hey, he started it... I had to stand up for them right?
How can they be scolded 'idiots' for something they're innocent for!!!
I don't mind myself being scolded an idiot(though I'm mad), but they're innocent...
I got mad...
I nearly started an arguement.
But then the auntie said that daddy was back so I went to get him in the heavy rain...
Problem settled...
But still mad, so I thrash all my anger into mashing the chicken...
My dad's workers laughed...
Guess they never seen me so angry before...
Hahas...
Yup...
Still working...
I think the peak period should be coming quite soon...
Better get back to work, or rather slack till the peak period...
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Love is not blind. Puppy love is..# ;
